The End is Near
October 8, 2009
Yes, I mean for that to sound apocalyptic. This is a big deal. (Not really.) But it seems the better days of this blog are now behind me. I’ll save the melodrama of a grandiose "goodbye" as I shut this thing down…because the reality is, I’m not going to shut it down, and I’ll probably still post entries. They will just be fewer and farther between (already a trend as of late).
My walk with the Lord needs work. Right now, it’s more like a limp with the Lord. It’s frustrating. I’m frustrated. I am far. I find it hard to reconcile the fact that God IS faithful with the fact that God seems inattentive to my needs and petitions in prayer. I don’t have a church. I don’t read the Word. I don’t DO this life. I work too hard, drink away my feelings, lack an enriching social life. I struggle in isolation and desperation. These issues of my heart. I told God the other day that He is going to have to come for me, because I’m tired of striving and struggling. I’m not moving.
It really is just too tiring to think about it.
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Meryl | October 12, 2009 at 11:44 am
i feel like i just read a paragraph about my own life…. my walk is like a limp, i’m frustrated, don’t read the word or pray b/c my life is a mess and i remain in guilt, drink away my feelings, etc.
BUT…
hang in there DP. Jesus is not surprised by our sin and wandering. and we certainly don’t need to clean ourselves up in order to return to him. Romans 5:8 is appropriate here… whiile we were ugly sinners, at that moment Jesus laid down his life for us. God is guaranteed to be relentless in his pursuit of you. he’s cool like that.
meryl