Confused and Awed
June 18, 2009
The more I ponder on the work of Christ on the cross, the less it makes sense to me. And that worries me. Am I losing what little understanding I have? Am I regressing? Is this a gradual blindness to the things of God?
Or is it awe?
The mystery, the wonder, the absurdity of the son of God crucified to redeem the world. I mean…WHAT?! What is that? And then there’s this Spirit that lives inside of us. It’s wild! God is crazy! (And I mean that in all reverence.) I’ve been saturating myself with The Word for the past few days, and, I confess, there is an anxiety swelling within me, because I am perplexed by the things of God. I read. I study. Why am I perplexed? But my faith remains and is even strengthened, perhaps.
Maybe this is the beginning of child-like faith. How humbling. Everything I believe doesn’t “make sense”, yet I believe it anyway! Maybe this is awe.
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Elise | June 19, 2009 at 5:18 pm
I have done some similar things/thinkings recently, and I thus point you to 1 Cor. 1:18-31, “so that your faith might rest not on human wisdom but on the power of God (2:5).”
I think, if you believed it all made sense and you understood everything…you might should think maybe you’re missing something.
=)
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Dana | June 19, 2009 at 7:59 pm
Word.