Static

 

I was blessed enough to receive a free big screen TV for my apartment from some family friends who are moving and getting rid of a lot of stuff.  (They have donated/will donate other furnishings to me as well.  Thank you, Lord!)  The TV has been around a little while so it has its…hmm…quirks.  Like, most of the time, when I first turn the TV on, I get nothing but static and white noise for about a minute and a half (sometimes more, sometimes less).  I don’t know why it does that or what exactly it’s doing, but we’ve come to an understanding.  So I just let my TV do whatever it needs to do to get itself going and I usually start making breakfast while it settles itself.  The static has become a part of my morning routine.

But I’ve got another kind of static going on too–one that I’m not comfortable having as part of my routine.  I feel like my relationship with God is just white noise right now.  I open my Bible and I’m bored out of my mind!  My devotional books are not stimulating.  My conversations with God have been reduced to just a few words: “Help!” or “Thank you!”  It just feels like…like…like obnoxious, useless buzzing.  Like static.  Maybe I’m overexaggerating.  I still have those moments of spontaneous bursting into praise with song.  I still have an abiding joy.  But, what’s with the static?  A month ago my spiritual life was like hi-def TV!  What’s up with the downgrade?